We'll be brothers again in our next life!!
Why does my marriage always end in failure?
It's been over 20 years, and almost everyday I am experiencing the pain of not being with you.
If one day, we could no longer find each other,
then let's come here to meet.
He hides his emotions. When he works, he is very organized.
My first impression was not wrong.
Song Jie has pushed me to the very edge.
We can't be together in this life, but I will look forward to the next life.
I hope that we will really last forever.
I know in this lifetime you have only Zhang Hao Tian in your heart.
I don't love you. That's the only reason.
I have always hoped that I could hold you like this one day.
Timing and Subtitles by The Ladder Of Love Team@Viki
The Ladder of Love
Episode 60
I don't know how many times this church has appeared in my dreams.
I'm so afraid this is only a dream.
I came today.
Zi Yang, do you think Hao Tian will come?
Whether Hao Tian will come or not, I believe he would never have forgotten you.
Am I too selfish?
To have Hao Tian forget me and be with Tian Xin,
I have told him such a big lie.
Not only have I lied to him, I've lied to all those who loves and cares about me.
Qiu Yan, you must never think that.
Faking death was not your intention, it was only the best choice.
Whether it's to Hao Tian or the people around you,
everyone have already walked out from their sorrow.
And you, you've also got your wish, is that not so?
Actually, I've been in conflict with myself.
Why did I come today? What am I expecting?
So what if Hao Tian came or didn't come?
Because in his heart, Chen Qiu Yan has already died.
He is finally living a normal life with Tian Xin now,
why do I have come to mess up their quiet life?
But I'm feeling so uneasy.
I still want to see him once more.
I still want to know whether he still loves me.
Zi Yang, what should I do?
Don't be too mindful of what others think.
The important thing is to follow your heart, so that you won't regret it.
Follow my heart...
Tian Xin, have some warm water. You might feel better.
Hao Tian.
Hao Tian, I feel like I'm dreaming now.
I've always hoped I could hold you like this one day.
I didn't think that, I really can hold you now.
What you said today, is it true you're going to marry me?
If it's not true and only to console me,
it's fine. Just tell me, okay?
Tian Xin, don't speak those silly words anymore.
From today on, you need to be happy.
Promise me not to do anything to make me worry anymore, okay?
Hao Tian! Have you come back?
- Tian Xin is also here. - Auntie.
I-I bought some meat stuffing, I was thinking of making dumplings.
I'm going to go make dumplings.
Auntie, let me help you.
People all say, men's hearts are like onions.
If you want to understand him, you must open it layer by layer.
During the process of opening it, you will cry.
In the end, you will realise that onions don't have hearts.
That doesn't mean men don't have hearts,
but it's because the hearts of men...
have already been give to the woman he loves the most.
Hao Tian-!
Zi Yang.
Although your sickness is under control,
but you still need to be careful with your body. Let's go back.
Let me wait a while more.
Only when I'm here, do I feel that my heart
and Hao Tian's heart are so close together.
Zi Yang,
thank you.
I'm really thankful that you've always given me all of your love,
yet I've never given you anything.
I've already understood now.
I don't hate Hao Tian. Comparatively, I should be grateful to him.
If it weren't for him, I wouldn't have known I have so many flaws.
I originally always thought that he took you from me.
But I understand now,
I've never had you.
Watching you two love with so much difficulty throughout this time,
I'm envious and jealous.
To find a pair like you two is so rare.
Qiu Yan,
although I can't have you,
but I can help you get everything you want.
Perhaps...
that's my true happiness.
Thank you, Zi Yang.
Thank you for everything you've done for me.
Don't be so courteous with me.
We've waited for so long already,
it doesn't seem he'll come.
Didn't the doctor say, you can't stay outside for too long.
Your body only just got better, you still need to be careful with your recovery.
After this time, when you're fully recovered,
let's give everyone a surprise.
But...but will I really become fully recovered?
Of course, I believe in you.
Let's go.
Is it still cold?
They're together now?
Mum.
Hao Tian, us two haven't talked like this for a long time.
Yeah, it's been some time.
Since your father died,
our family has been a mess.
In the past, mum never intervened in your issues.
That was because mum believes that everything you do,
is a result of your detailed thinking.
But recently, I've realised you haven't been so calm.
Mum will ask you again, are you really going to marry Tian Xin?
Mum wants to advise you again,
two people's marriage is for life.
If you two don't truly love each other,
then your marriage is destined to be unhappy.
Marriage isn't a game. Once it's decided, it's for life.
If there are no feelings between two people, it's impossible for it to last long.
Mum,
how many people in this world can say that who they've married
is the person they love the most in this lifetime?
Tian Xin is a good girl, I don't want to disappoint her.
Not letting the person you don't love feel that you don't love her,
is already the biggest love for her.
Now there shouldn't be any problems with the processes, right?
Chairman Lu, the processes are done.
From now on, we'll contact Lang Yue for all of Tian Cheng Corporation's debt problems.
Good job, then this will be in your hands now.
- I'm going to leave then. - Go carefully.
Swear?
♫How many promises of love♫
♫Leaves just the outline♫
♫Just like the beautiful night sky♫
♫The fireworks after it has flared♫
♫Apart from the loneliness before my eyes♫
♫What else do I have left?♫
♫I picked up my heart again♫
♫And put a lock on love♫
♫The heart is fragile♫
♫Filling the eyes with doubt♫
♫Your world does not involve me♫
♫Once cried and once hated♫
♫Shrinking in the cold wind♫
Qiu Yan, I couldn't walk to the end with you.
I'm sorry.
♫Who can I tell my sorrows to?♫
♫I am released after I wake from the dream♫
♫ I, who have loved you♫
♫Once cried and once hated♫
"I'm going to take wedding photos tomorrow,
"but the bride...
"...isn't you."
♫Once cried and once hated♫
♫Shrinking in the cold wind♫
♫Once cried and once hated♫
♫Oh, the tears are swallowed by the rain drops♫
♫Who can I tell my sorrows to?♫
♫I am released after I wake from the dream♫
♫ I, who have loved you♫
♫Once cried and once hated♫
Why doesn't this fountain spray water anymore?
Qiu Yan, it's already very late, we should leave.
At this time, Hao Tian should be preparing his wedding with Tian Xin tomorrow.
Qiu Yan, I think that since you've decided to let go,
don't think about these anymore, alright?
Looks like even the gods wants me to forget him.
Let's go, let's go back.
Okay, come. That's fine, good.
Relax a bit, groom. Don't be so nervous.
Smile, groom. Good, be happier.
- Smile. - Here, look at her. Prepare, one, two, three.
Tian Xin, you look so pretty today!
Thank you, Auntie.
Here.
Zi Yang, look what a match Tian Xin and Hao Tian are.
My intentions haven't failed then.
I really hope they could be happy together like this for the rest of their lives.
Kai Wen, turn over.
Yeah! So cute!
Why are you secretly taking photos of me?
It's your luck that I wanted to take photos of you.
Then I will too!
No, no! Don't!
It won't look good, you fatty! If you make me look ugly, you're dead meat!
- Qiu Yan, I think we should go back. - Kai Wen, stop!
- I'm afraid... - Let me watch a moment more,
I'm going to watch a moment more.
Tian Xin and Hao Tian are both people I love the most. Seeing how happy they are,
I feel happy too.
But if we don't go back still, the doctor is going to scold us again.
Just let me see a moment more.
Let's change the location!
That side is not bad.
- Let's take a few more photos. - I'm going to the bride's side.
Go, go, go.
- Come. - Get closer, everyone, get closer.
Okay, look this way, look happier. One, two, three!
Okay, very good. Prepare for another one.
Wait, wait! I will also take one,
with my camera.
Let me take one.
Good. Wait, wait for me!
Good.
Wait! I lost an earring.
- Gone? Let's look for it. - Earring?
Alright, alright. Let's not look for it. I've prepared many pairs on the car.
- Then I'll go get it. - Wait, wait.
You're the groom, you should stay with the bride.
- Let me do this. - It's fine, let me go.
Okay, okay, okay.
- Then come back quickly! - Come back soon!
- Alright, alright. - Take some with only the bride.
Turn this way, turn this way.
Qiu Yan! Qiu Yan!
Qiu Yan!
Qiu Yan! Qiu Yan! Qiu Yan!
That's not right, I saw her just then.
Could it have been a hallucination?
Hao Tian! Hao Tian!
Why are you so slow? Everybody is waiting for you.
Quick, quick, quick.
Brother?
Brother, why did you come?
You don't look too good, not too happy. Did Mum scold you?
Why are you so mumbly like them?
I came to see my beloved little sister, is that not allowed?
You didn't come when I got maried,
you've finally remember to come see me now?
I think you don't need to hide it from me anymore,
you only came to me because Mum scolded you, right?
Don't ask me anymore, I haven't even asked anything yet.
Why do you have to marry Lu Feng?
Brother, what's with you? Did you come to interrogate me?
If Mum has made you angry, can you not come to take it out on me?
No- you knew what kind of person Lu Feng is,
why did you still have to jump into the fire?
Brother, I've already fallen in love with him.
You should know about this feeling,
like you've fallen in love with Chen Qiu Yan, careless of everything else.
I'm already very sad to not be able to get people's blessings.
Why...why would you say this too? Why won't you say something good?
How could Lu Feng be the same as Qiu Yan?
Qiu Yan is so kind, she would rather sacrifice herself for other people.
But can Lu Feng?
It's not as if you don't know about the things he has done.
Zi Han, one takes on the colours of those around them.
If you be with him, you'll become dragged in by him!
Brother, did you purposely come to curse me and my husband?
Mum and Dad doesn't want me anymore, I would think that you would still love me. Why are you like this too?
It is because brother loves you,
that is why I came to remind you, not to get blinded by him.
Brother, I already have no where else to back into.
Zi Han, as long as you're willing to turn back,
brother will forever be on your side.
Zi Yang?
We haven't seen for a long time, you start making conflict between us the moment we see.
Zi Han, you must be happy.
Otherwise, Zi Yang will think that the moment we got married,
I start treating you badly.
Brother, I am very satisfied with my current life and I am very happy.
You don't need to worry for me anymore.
I would be even more grateful if you could convince Mum and Dad to accept Lu Feng.
Zi Han, after going through so much,
why do you-?
Fine.
Since this is your own issue,
think about it youself.
Zi Yang,
I know. You're still upset about Chen Qiu Yan's death right now.
Although Chen Qiu Yan and I haven't had much contact,
but I still want to express my sorrow for the loss.
Sorrow? From you?
Looks like our previous misunderstanding,
still hasn't been forgotten by you.
Think about it, your enemy shouldn't be me
but it should be Zhang Hao Tian.
Your position as Manager is taken by him again and again,
including the person you love, your dad and your mum is under his command too.
But I'm different. No matter what, you're my brother-in-law.
I can't possibly harm you, right?
You don't need to create conflict here.
I'm telling you, I'm already not the Song Zi Yang from the past anymore.
I willingly gave up my position as Manager at Tian Cheng Corporation.
Also, the issues of the Song family doesn't relate to you.
My side here is all round.
-Where? - Look at this here.
How happily you're smiling.
Why have it all become out of shape?
Hao Tian, come take a look.
- Look at this one. - This one. - Later.
Let me go get some water for you.
Okay.
- This one too. - This one as well. - How about this,
let's fine a good day and then continue taking more.
- Let's take some different styled ones. - Okay.
Not bad, look.
Kai Wen has got the other photos.
Let me see.
- Let me see the photos. - This one is alright.
Photos?
No way. Was it because your skills were too bad,
did you take the photos badly?
The photos were great, okay?
It is because I took them too well, that's why...
You won't let me see even though you took them well? Hurry and let me see.
Hurry! Let go!
I will need to see if you've taken them well or not.
Just see what I will do.
What are you hiding? Take it out.
It's nothing.
Give it!
These two colours are not bad.
You've taken them quite well, they're not bad.
Why were you being so secretive?
This photo has...has...
This...isn't this Qiu Yan?!
She-she-she...could she have?! Oh my!
- It's really Sister Qiu Yan. - How could that be possible?
Qiu Yan...it's really Qiu Yan!
Then I didn't hallucinate, I really didn't make a mistake.
It's Qiu Yan, she' still alive.
- She's still alive! Qiu Yan! - Brother! - Hao Tian!
- Brother where are you going?!
- Sure. - Mum, Dad.
- Zi Yang? Where did you go? - Zi Yang?
Didn't you say you went to take photos with Hao Tian?
I called Hao Tian, he said you didn't go at all.
What have you been busy with recently? You haven't been at home from day to night.
I have things to do so I didn't go.
Are you still blaming Hao Tian?
Zi Yang, Qiu Yan is already not here anymore.
Their issues were all because of fate,
nobody can blame them.
No matter what, Hao Tian is still your older brother.
When will you stop blaming him?
Mum! Why do you still look at me like we are still in the past?
I've already said, I have already forgotten what happened in the past.
Stop being worried for nothing.
I am just caring about you.
Zi Yang, Zi Han has married Lu Feng without listening to me.
I'm already having enough of a headache.
I'm begging you, don't add to my troubles, alright?
Fine, fine, fine. Mum, don't worry.
I'll convince my sister. I'm very tired now, I need to go home and rest.
Don't lie to me. Tell me, is Qiu Yan still alive?
Is she still alive?
Zhang Hao Tian, what are you saying?
Haven't you already gone to Qiu Yan's funeral?
You're still lying to me now?!
Don't lie to me anymore. Tell me the truth, don't run away! Tell me the truth.
Is Qiu Yan still alive? This was all your setup, right?
Tell me, is she?!
Hao Tian, don't be rash. Let's talk over it.
Let- let go.
Zhang Hao Tian, are you sick?
What can an unclear photo like this prove?
I'm telling you, if you dare lie to me, just you wait!
What's going on?
Why did Hao Tian bring that photo here, saying something ridiculous?
- I... - Zi Yang, do you know something?
This isn't a small issue, this isn't a joke.
That's right, Zi Yang. What's going on? This isn't a game.
Can you not annoy me? There's nothing!
This...never mind this anymore!
Zi Yang! Zi-
Is Zi Yang not here?
Driver, driver. Follow that car over there.
Miss Chen, the report shows that you have acute leukaemia.
What?
Acute......leukaemia?
Qiu Yan.
Qiu Yan, here.
Qiu Yan!
- Qiu Yan! - Mum!
- Qiu Yan!
I knew you didn't die.
Why did you have to lie to me? Why?!
Mum, your daughter is unfilial.
Daughter has made you worried.
You silly child! How could you think to do this?
Was it because you wanted to let Tian Xin and Hao Tian be together,
that's why you told them you died?
So that Hao Tian forgets you?
For you to sacrifice your own happiness,
did you really think Tian Xin and Hao Tian would really be happy?
And did you think about mum's feelings?
Mum would feel even worse, did you know?
Mum, I'm sorry.
I've made you worry for me.
But I understand my own body the most!
I know I shouldn't have made such a lie,
although my illness is under control now, it can erupt again at anytime!
I really don't want to see the people I love the most,
worry for me and being pained for me everyday!
I would rather the whole world thinks that I've died.
Because of a moment of pain,
it's still better than going through timeless torture!
Qiu Yan.
You've suffered,
- Qiu Yan. - Mum!
Qiu Yan! Qiu Yan!
What can an unclear photo like this prove?
I'm telling you, if you dare lie to me, just you wait!
Impossible, Qiu Yan wouldn't lie to me.
Why did she have to lie to me?
From now on, everything between us ends.
If you want to reject me, then please give me a reason.
When you don't love a person anymore,
there's no need for a reason, there's no need for an explanation.
You and Tian Xin are actually the most suitable pair.
I believe you should know clearly,
that Tian Xin has always had deep feelings for you.
I hope you two could be together.
Could it be because she wanted to let me be together with Tian Xin?
That can't be, it's too ridiculous.
Has Qiu Yan really died?
You're back?
Mum, what happened to you recently?
I don't see you at the shop often. I've waited for a long time.
It's nothing, I only went to take a walk outside.
What to do? Tian Xin is getting married tomorrow.
If she knew Qiu Yan is still alive,
how will she take it?
I must continue hiding it.
Sister Li Na, I've also realised,
it's as if you've suddenly become a different person recently.
It's as if you're not sad for Qiu Yan's issue anymore.
Auntie!
I don't want to think about sad things anymore.
Seeing Tian Xin is about to marry soon,
I need to help Tian Xin get married with a happy perspective.
So that's how it is.
I feel sad for all the parents.
Tian Xin, take a look.
- How much your mum loves you. - Of course.
For your wedding to have a happy atmosphere,
she has already begun fixing her emotions.
So you must be on par with the other people, understood?
Let me think, since that's the case,
I've decided to prepare seven gowns for you for your wedding.
Seven? Isn't that too much?
Of course not! You only get married once!
Women should be better to themselves, do you understand?
Sure, sure. Thank you, Auntie.
But let's discuss this another day.
Mum, I want to buy some stuff for Hao Tian for the wedding.
- Go. - Bye bye.
- No way, you. You've got scared off by seven gowns? - Bye bye!
This child.
If I got married one day, I'm planning to prepare...
ten gowns for myself. Ten! Ten!
Attendant.
- Hello. - Hello.
Can you take this shirt our for me to have a look?
Sure.
This brand's design is quite suitable for him.
This pattern looks quite good.
Yes, miss. This brand's material is also quite good.
Only one is left now. Buy it quickly if you like it
and give it to your husband.
I'm sorry, I still haven't got married yet.
Then it's still quite suitable to give to your boyfriend.
Let me see if the measurements are right.
Okay.
The measurements seem quite suitable too.
- This material is indeed good. - Yes.
If I had Zi Yang give this shirt to Hao Tian,
will he be suspicious that I gave it to him?
I'm sorry, I want to take another look.
It's fine, no worries.
- Hello, can I take a look? - Sure.
It looks just right.
Miss, I want this one.
- Sure, please come this way. - Thank you.
That shirt just then really suited Hao Tian.
- Thank you. - Come again!
Hello, I've decided, I want to buy the shirt just then. Is card okay?
I'm sorry, Miss. That last shirt was bought by another lady just then?
How quick.
Then how about this, can you check the stock for me? The quicker the better.
Sorry, we only stock competitive products.
That really was the last one. How about you take a look at other designs?
Then which way did the customer, who bought the shirt, go?
It seems she went that way.
- Yes, that way. - What colour clothes was she wearing?
A purple dress.
- Okay, thank you. - Welcome.
Hello, Miss. You shirt-
Sister. Sister!
Sister! Sister! Is it really you?
You're really still alive!
Sister, do you know how much Mum and I cried for you?
We were both hoping that a miracle would happen everyday,
we hoped you would still be alive.
Why are you so cruel?
Why did you lie to us? Why?
I...I...
Could it be...could it be because you wanted Hao Tian to forget you and be with me?
Could it be because so he wouldn't be emotionally prepared that you faked your death?
♫Once cried and once hated ♫
♫ Shrinking in the cold wind♫
♫Once cried and once hated ♫
♫Oh, the tears are swallowed by the rain drops♫
♫ I really don't want you to cry. ♫
♫We've had too many misunderstandings. ♫
♫I watch your face. ♫
♫It's stubborn yet beautifully heartbreaking.♫
♫ I can't face it. ♫
♫So I act like it doesn't matter. ♫
♫But that has made you cry. ♫
♫There is no chance for me to explain ♫
♫The troubles in my heart, ♫
♫and the self-deprecating blame.♫
♫Love will make people break each other's hearts. ♫
♫Why is it that only after breaking up, ♫
♫ do I feel the pain in my heart? ♫
♫These tears endlessly wet your face. ♫
♫ I force myself to say goodbye. ♫
♫ But when the words are on the tip of my tongue, it makes you cry, ♫
♫like your heart has been slowly ripped apart.♫
♫ Why is it that only after leaving you, ♫
♫do I want to return to the past? ♫
♫But love is already too far away from me. ♫
♫I'll just accept all of this. ♫
♫I force myself to say goodbye,but it makes you cry once again,♫
♫like your heart has been slowly ripped apart. ♫
♫I am in debt to you. ♫